The 'Senorita' singer, who has been outspoken about her body insecurities, admits that she 'held my core so tight my abs hurt' during the outing because she knew paparazzi were taking her pictures.
- Apr 4, 2022
AceShowbiz - Camila Cabello is so "upset" that her recent beach trip was ruined. Revealing that she always got "papped" every time she visited an unnamed beach club in Miami, the former Fifth Harmony member slammed the paparazzi in a new essay.
"Somehow when I check in paps know and get me in my bikini and every time I've felt super vulnerable and unprepared," the 25-year-old began her message, which was shared on Instagram on Saturday, April 2. "I've worn bikinis that were too small and paid no mind to how I looked, then saw pictures online and comments and been so upset."
"I reminded myself when it impacted my self-esteem that I was thinking the culture's thoughts and not my own. A culture that has gotten so used to an image of what a 'healthy' woman's body looks like that is completely not real for a lot of women," she added. "Photoshop, restrictive eating, over-exercising, and choosing angles that make our bodies look different than how they are in the moment."
Camila went on to note, "I remind myself of this, listen to podcasts on intuitive eating, follow women who accept their stretch marks, cellulite, bellies, bloating, weight fluctuations...and still." She then argued, "I'm a single woman in her 20s in the middle of a s**t ton of promo and I want to feel like I look 'good'. Today I got a new bikini, a whole f**kin cute outfit , put lip gloss on, and didn't eat anything too heavy before going in the OCEAN cause I knew it was gonna be basically a whole photoshoot."
The "Senorita" songstress, who has been outspoken about her body insecurities, admitted that she "held my core so tight my abs hurt and didn't breathe" during the outing. She further explained that she "barely smiled and was so self conscious of where the paps were the whole time," adding that she "tried to pretend they weren't there."
"I wanted to talk about this because we see pictures of women and praise them for looking good, for looking fit or 'healthy', but what is health if you are so fixated on what your body looks like that your mental health suffers and you can't enjoy your life?" Camila continued explaining. "Who am I trying to look attractive for and am I even attractive to myself if I can't let loose and relax and have fun and be playful on a beautiful day at the beach?"
"I'm not yet at the point in my journey where I can not give a f**k," the ex-girlfriend of Shawn Mendes later confessed. "Intellectually, I know what I look like doesn't determine how healthy, happy, or sexy I am. Emotionally, the messaging i get from our world is loud in my own head. Ironically, all the therapy, all the inner work is to try and get back to feeling like 7 year old me on the beach . I'm mourning her today. Happy, silly, breathing, pretending to be a mermaid, FREE."
