AceShowbiz - Elle Macpherson's memoir, "elle: Life, Lessons & Learning to Trust Yourself," delves into the depths of her addiction. Despite her glamorous public image, Macpherson was secretly battling alcoholism, downing vodka and champagne alone, experiencing blackouts, and even smashing a vodka bottle open to drink from it.

Motherhood and her strained relationship with her then-partner, Arpad "Arki" Busson, exacerbated her struggles. After a failed attempt to attend rehab, Macpherson found herself spiraling downward until a desperate attempt to open a bottle of vodka in Ibiza became her turning point.

Macpherson entered a rehab facility in Arizona and was initially humiliated to be grouped with anorexics due to her thinness. However, she eventually acknowledged her disordered eating and realized the extent of her addiction.

During rehab, she felt ashamed about her past behavior and resolved to maintain her sobriety. After leaving rehab, Macpherson's relationship with Arki ended, but they have since developed a friendly rapport.

Macpherson's battle with breast cancer has also shaped her outlook on life. She has chosen to forego traditional medical treatment and instead focuses on wellness and self-care.

Reflecting on her journey, Macpherson emphasizes the importance of self-discovery and authenticity. While she understands that sobriety is a personal choice, she advocates for individuals to prioritize their own well-being and to seek help if needed.

At 60 years old, Macpherson feels rejuvenated and optimistic. She says that her experiences have taught her the power of self-acceptance, resilience, and the importance of embracing new chapters in life.