AceShowbiz - Jessie J is experiencing a heartbreaking loss. The "Flashlight" hitmaker has just revealed that she lost her unborn baby ahead of her concert in Los Angeles and it left her shocked.
On Wednesday, November 24, the "Price Tag" songstress announced the sad news on her Instagram page. Alongside a photo of her holding up a positive pregnancy test, she wrote, "Im still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok."
"Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying, 'seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience I am pregnant,' " Jessie shared in her heartfelt caption. "By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down…After going for my 3rd scan and being told there was no longer a heartbeat [broken heart emoji]."
Jessie went on to tell her fans and followers, "This morning. I feel like I have no control of my emotions. I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don't know." The 33-year-old singer added, "What I do know is that I want to sing tonight. Not because Im avoiding the grief or the process, but because I know singing tonight will help me."
"I have done 2 shows in 2 years and my soul needs it. Even more today," Jessie confessed. She then said that she knew some people might want her to "cancel" her performance. However, she stressed that singing is one of her "therapy."
Jessie penned, "In this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and self love therapy, that hasn't ever changed and I have to process this my way." She continued, "I want to be honest and true and not hide what I'm feeling. I deserve that. I want to be as myself as I can be in this moment. Not just for the audience but for myself and my little baby that did it's best."
"I know myself and I know I would talk about it on stage because that's who I am. So instead of a tearful emotional speech trying to explain my energy. This feels safer," Jessie elaborated. The Grammy-winning artist also revealed that she "decided to have a baby on [her] own." She reasoned, "Because it's all I've ever wanted and life is short. To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again."
Near the end of her lengthy caption, Jessie sent a loving message to those who also suffered miscarriage. "I also know millions of women all over the world have felt this pain and way worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don't," she stated. "It's the loneliest feeling in the world." She then concluded her post as saying, "So I will see you tonight LA. I may crack less jokes but my heart will be in the room."