AceShowbiz - Kehlani was having "full-blown identity issues" before publicly coming out as a lesbian last year (2020).
The singer revealed all about her sexuality in an Instagram Live event, and now admits she felt "pressure" to fit into a certain mould before she found an identity she felt comfortable with.
"I was having full-blown identity issues [before]... [with] the balance of masculinity and femininity, especially being under the public eye," she tells Them magazine. "The pressure to be sexy, and what does sexy look like and mean and feel like to me? How does that trail into my participation in the fashion world? What does that mean for photo shoots? What does that mean for everything? There's this extra gigantic layer of things that I have to think about besides just waking up and being myself."
The "Nights Like This" hitmaker also revealed she didn't plan on coming out during a livestream, confessing she initially wanted her new music to do the talking.
"I didn't plan to come out in that way," she explains. "I was going to just let my new music speak for itself. All the music I've been making has been from this new perspective and this new clarity. That s**t blew up and I didn't expect it to when I said it - it just took its own life."
And Kehlani admits she took some time to "figure out" things about her sexuality and her identity before publicly coming out.
She adds, "There was a lot that I, for the last couple years, felt like I was trying to figure out. And I feel like it was pretty obvious."
"I did a lot of big switch ups, where people would be like, 'Oh, you getting nails longer than your hand now. When you first came out, you were wearing baggy pants and sports bras and blah, blah, blah'. I think a lot of that came from me genuinely not knowing how to navigate myself, versus who I had to be for the world."