Prior to her son Crew's death, the social media star kept her fans up to date with the baby boy's condition through a series of posts that she shared on her Instagram account.
- Dec 30, 2019
AceShowbiz - Brittani Boren Leach and her family are grieving just before the year ends. Her three-month-old baby boy, Crew, passed away on Monday, December 30 after a fatal health issue that she explained to her devotees through a series of Instagram posts beginning last Thursday.
In her first post, the YouTube star recalled putting her son down for a nap on Christmas Day. However, when she went to check on him later that day, something was terribly wrong. "Crew laid down for a nap and when I went to check on him, he was not breathing," she said. "We are living a nightmare, and I'm dying inside. Please pray for my baby. This can't be real."
Crew was later diagnosed with catastrophic brain damage, and over the days that followed, Brittani continued to update her fans on her infant's condition, which did not improve. In one image, Crew was placed on a ventilator as she stood over her little boy with her eyes red from crying. Expressing how hard it was for her to take, she said, "I just want to crawl in my bed with my baby and nurse him. Instead I'm saying here with a breast-pump in my bra where my baby should be... begging God for a miracle. Please continue to pray. Please. I don't think I can go on without him."
In the end, she and her husband Jeff decided to let doctors take Crew's organs for donations. It was incredibly a hard decision to make, as Brittani later admitted along with a photo of her crying into her arms with her knees pulled up to her chest. "It's all just too much. All of it. I know God has a plan for this, but I'm really mad at him right now. I cry behind the bathroom door while Jeff holds me, because in the room over everyone else gets to laugh and go on with their lives, and it makes me so angry," she confessed.
Brittani continued, "Running tests on my sons body to see how his organs are functioning before they take them. Pumping breastmilk just to pour it down the drain. Hearing a baby cry. Seeing a baby his age. Shopping Nordstrom for the dress I'll wear to my son's funeral. It's all too much. I'm sorry to vent, but this is my heart."
Finally, on Monday, Brittani told her followers that Crew "went to be with Jesus today." She added, "I'm not very good with words right now, because my heart hurts and I'm angry. Crew's Story has reached masses, and it selfishly hurts me that it has. I'm thankful for all the love and support that has been shown."
"Right now Crew is dancing and playing in Heaven with Jeff's brother, great grandparents, a little brother I never met, and some very special little boys," she added. "And one day we hope we to meet the 3 or 4 little lives that he has saved. But right now there's a big hole in my heart and my arms feel empty. Please continue to pray for our strength in coming hours, days, weeks and years."
