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Hugh Jackman finds his new movie "Pan" special because it's similar to his and his kids' life. The Australia-born actor revealed to Parade magazine that he felt related to a character, Peter Pan, in the movie because he was left by his mother when he was 8 years old.

"I was volatile," Jackman told the publication. "My mum left when I was 8. My anger didn't really surface until I was 12 or 13. It was triggered because my parents were going to get reconciled and didn't. All those years I'd been holding out hope that they would." After his mom left him, he became "a fearful kid who felt powerless." He admitted, "I couldn't go into the house on my own. I'd wait outside, scared, frustrated. Growing up I was scared of the dark. I was scared of heights. It limited me."

However, the actor said that the character in the movie was more related to his adopted kids than him. "I was more sensitive about its connection to my two adopted children," Jackman said. "Every movie I do, I think, 'My kids are going to see this.' When it's a movie about adoption, I want to make sure that they don't feel uncomfortable. Peter Pan is a classic tale, but now we live in a different world where we're more sensitive about adoption."

Jackman also revealed why he and his wife Deborra-Lee Furness decided to adopt kids. "We always wanted kids. I was brought up in a family with five kids, two were adopted, three biological. It was a natural mix to me. Deb felt that way too," he explained. "We thought we'd have a couple of biological children and maybe one adopted. But biologically, we couldn't have kids, so that didn't happen."

"We went through IVF [in vitro fertilization]. Deb doesn't give up," the hunky actor said of their attempt to have children biologically after Furness had miscarriages. "At a certain point I was like, 'Deb, let's adopt now.' In Australia at the time, you couldn't do IVF and adopt simultaneously. So we adopted, and it has been the greatest, most fulfilling and challenging role of our lives."

Regarding what worries him the most, Jackman said, "My kids." He's worried if his kids wouldn't know how to work hard because of his fame. "They're growing up with great privileges and great challenges. And they have this fame and paparazzi that I didn't have to encounter because no one was interested in my father. We worry a lot," he explained.