In a new interview, the multi-hypenated star shares that she refused to perform songs written near the time of her 2003 break-up with the 'Gone Girl' actor, who is now her husband.
- Nov 29, 2022
AceShowbiz - Jennifer Lopez refused to perform songs written near the time of her break-up with Ben Affleck. The "Jenny from the Block" hitmaker added Ben, whom she married earlier this year after they reunited following decades apart following their 2003 split, is now her "biggest fan" and loves hearing all her tunes.
In an interview with Zane Lowe on Apple Music 1, the 53-year-old singer said, "Dude, I wouldn't even perform these records. It was so painful after we broke up. Once we called off that wedding 20 years ago, it was the biggest heartbreak of my life. I honestly felt like I was going to die. It sent me on a spiral for the next 18 years where I just couldn't get it right."
"It's funny because when me and Ben got back together, he was like, 'You never performed the songs. You never did, I'm glad. You never did this, you never did that.' I was like, 'You're right. It was painful.' It was a part of me then that I had to put away to move on and survive. It was a survival tactic, for sure," she continued.
After Jennifer and Ben called off their engagement in 2003, Ben married Jennifer Garner in 2005, and had children Violet, 16, Seraphina, 13, and Sam, 11, with the actress. Meanwhile, Jennifer had twins, Emme and Max, 14, with ex-husband Marc Anthony. She added about Ben's love for her 2002 record "This Is Me... Then", released months before they called off their engagement, "He loves that album. He loves that music. He knows all of the words. You know what I mean? It's crazy. He also was with me while I was creating it... he's my biggest fan, which is awesome, and supporter."
Jennifer, who is preparing to release her latest album "This Is Me...Now", added, "That album, 'This Is Me... Then' really captured a moment in time where I fell in love with the love of my life. It's all right there on the record. I didn't even realise what was happening and what I was doing. It was just every day going from the set to the recording studio, doing the thing, being in love, him coming into the studio, writing 'I'm Glad' and going, 'This reminds me of...', you know what I mean? Me tweaking the lyrics with him. Every single song that we wrote there, me writing 'Dear Ben', it was such a special moment in time to have captured."
But she said the 2002 album was "prophetic" as it seemed to foreshadow her and Ben's split after it was released. Jennifer added, "I decided to call it 'This Is Me... Then' - this moment in time was captured of finding your soulmate in that time and it's all there. When I listen to the lyrics now, I didn't even realise I was writing some of our story that would happen, which was sick still. Some of the records on there, which were more obvious about Ben, but even records that you were like, 'That's a breakup record' - I didn't even realise that it was prophetic in a weird way."
Jennifer also told how Ben had the message "Not. Going. Anywhere" inscribed on her engagement ring, saying, "Because that's how he would sign his emails when we started talking again. Like, 'Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere.' "
