Before wishing his wife Amber a happy 10-year wedding anniversary, the 'Backroad Song' singer acknowledges her hurting and admits his 'deep shame' over River's accidental drowning.
- Feb 14, 2020
AceShowbiz - Country music singer Granger Smith celebrated his 10th wedding anniversary to wife Amber with a reflective post on Instagram.
It's been a tough year for the couple, after their three-year-old son River died in an accidental drowning incident in the family's pool last June (19) and, marking 10 years since the pair married, Smith opened up on how they're coping with the tragic death of the toddler.
"It's not real," he captioned an image of himself and Amber kissing in an idyllic setting. "What you see: A couple seemingly in love. Living out the fairytale story draped in the sunset sky with a blue wood planked porch, white antique rocking chair, barefoot, sun kissed hair and summer tanned skin. A couple without a care in the world because LOVE has so consumed them."
He went on to explain that they're still coping with the death of River, and what he calls his "failure as a father."
"What I see: 2 people in a storm. Hanging on to God for truth and guidance like a lone fence post in a ravaging wind," the "Backroad Song" star added. "I see a girl hurting. Drawing on unimaginable strength just to continue on with necessary motherly duties. Clinging to the Bible like it's a life raft hurdling (sic) through an unknown sea."
"I see a man, savagely battling a relentless demon. Shielded only by Faith and masking the crippling weakness brought on by his deep shame; his failure as a father."
He continued, "But we're still in love. Stronger than ever before, but it feels different in its evolution now. It's not the fairytale, but the vulnerability that fuels the fire."
Granger concluded the post on a sweet note by wishing Amber a happy 10-year wedding anniversary, saying, "It will take more than 'til death do us part.' "
